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Friday, February 03, 2012

Drink Wine

Drink wine, it's what remains of the harvest of youth
- the season of roses and wine and drunken friends.
Be happy for this moment, this moment is your life.

lines from
The Rubiyat of Omar Khayyam


Well…I don’t know who I’m writing to, but someone!  What do I want to say?  What should I say?  And, do I need to say anything?  Let’s start with life.  There are few things in life that really matter.  I mean, really matter.  Most of life is someone else’s urgency, someone else’s drama, thrust upon us or perhaps, taken willingly but nonetheless, there it is.  We reach out and take it, opened armed and wonder what happened and why we’ve made it ours.

So…what does matter?  Well, I would start with love, kindness, honesty, family, friends and belief in God—things that aren’t popular anymore and even considered unneeded by much of society.  Then I would say nature, animals, and the sweet things of the earth. 

Have you ever watched lightning split the sky wide open arcing clear across and not felt the awesome power of earth.  Have you watched mighty waves come crashing in, knocking down everything in their path but realizing even with all that power, the ocean can come no further, its boundaries are set.  Have you ever wondered why and how that boundary was set?

Have you ever smelled the sweet fragrance after it’s just rained and everything smells and look so clean and new?  Have you witnessed the birth of any creature?  Have you ever searched the boundless blue sky of the day or the vast darkness of night and wondered at how small you felt in all that vastness and why the stars never leave their course?  Did you wonder why you felt so small?  Did you sense something bigger than yourself? 

Have you ever noticed how nature reacts to things that happen?  Nature and let anything knock it down for long before it’s up again!  Tree’s split asunder and just keep growing. Flowers and grass grow right beside a busy road and in some instances, right in the path of heavy traffic.  Animals are harmed and keep on with their life.  We can learn from nature if we only will.

Much of life is also lived dramatically, as if upon a huge stage and our lives played out for all to witness and comment on.  We get plenty of comments, but few actually witnesses what is hidden inside—the part that only we know.  Yet life is lived as if each moment were a soap opera until we are so tense, the nerves stretched so taut, that we nearly explode with all the pent up emotion. 

And, what about the different masks we all wear?  Here’s one for this friend and the one worn for parents and the one we keep hidden, the one only we know about and all the other ones we feel society demands. 

Well, your in-basket is never empty and when you go, someone else will finish it so take the time to live and breathe and feel and love and forgive for the moment may never pass your way again.

posted by Mines Broken @ Friday, February 03, 2012   0 Comments Links to this post

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Things Come and Go

Things come and things go
feelings, love, friends, foes
all of this i know not where
it hides or tarries, out of site
but this I know, when we grow old
someone leads, where we wish not to go
the youth that was, fades away
gray replaces as gold recedes.
those who once, took care of us
in turn must now reverse with us
the chalice held in youthful hands
disapperars as age advances
the chore at hand, I must now do
switches us from me to you. by sstreight

My brother and I have a very distasteful chore we have to do tomorrow concerning our mother who is getting up in age and making unhealthy choices for herself. The time has come for us to step in. She must be lead as she once lead us. I hope we can convince her not to do what she is wanting to.

posted by Mines Broken @ Saturday, January 14, 2012   0 Comments Links to this post

Saturday, January 07, 2012

Bits and Pieces

The New Year went well I guess. Didn't do anything. I started watching my new granddaughter this week and her older sister. I enjoy watching them. I was watching the older one 5 days a week but now her other grandmother and I are going to share the task. I'll have two days, she'll have two days and we'll share Wednesday by switching every week.

Last week we went tot he Thunder game the day before New Year's Eve and stayed in a hotel. It was a lot of fun. We only live 30 minutes from there but it's always fun to stay in a hotel, at least I think so.

I still don't think our family is pulled back together although apologies on both sides have occurred. Healing takes time when deep distrust or disloyalty happens in a family to the extent that it went on both sides I guess. I don't care about anything but my daughter and I getting back to where we used to be. We were friends and I enjoyed spending time with her and her wanting to come and visit me and me feeling welcome in her home. She hasn't visited me in a long time or me her I guess...well...I was there on her birthday in October.  I'd like to just wrap it all up and throw it all away between her and me but I don't know if that is what she wants. I'm sad.

I'll leave with a poem I wrote.


The things we do, come back to us
heap trouble on us
that
may or may not
leave
The actions we take, leave scars
some deep
some shallow
some never to heal
but
scars, anyhow.
How we react, whether victim or doer
speak mounds of character
whether
good character
bad character
or indifferent
but character, nonetheless.  by sstreight

posted by Mines Broken @ Saturday, January 07, 2012   0 Comments Links to this post

Monday, December 26, 2011

Almost Over

This year is almost over and I look forward to the new one coming. This year has been...hard. I've been in a cycle of nothingness for about 2 years and I'd like that to change. Nothing to date has made the slightest dent in anything and I am really hoping next year will be better...much better.

We had Christmas at my daughter's yesterday. This is another thing I'm glad is over for this year...Christmas. The three weeks that preceded this Christmas drained me and made it a pitiful day in my estimation. I enjoyed family but that was off kilter too. I pray that it changes but that may not be in the cards. Son-in-law was there. I wasn't expecting that due to being told he wouldn't be there but he was.

I hope the new year brings me a job as I've been out of one going on 2 years. There is nothing open. It is depressing to say the least. I hope the new year brings my daughter and me back to the relationship we once shared, a good one at least in my estimation but that may not be in the cards either. Who knows. I would not have even been able to envision the things that went on in this year so I won't even attempt to with the coming year but I can hope and pray, can't I.

Well, guess that's all for now.

posted by Mines Broken @ Monday, December 26, 2011   0 Comments Links to this post

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Christmas Blues

I am not enjoying this year at all and especially not this Christmas. I would like to totally skip the entire year as it has been the most upsetting one of my entire life. Many things have occurred from several different areas that cannot be changed, there's just no going back. And, it's just not personal stuff, it's other things as well...world things...things I cannot change or even make a dent in.

I'd like the world back I grew up in because this one has morphed into a cold, mean, ugly one even though everyone goes around with a mantra on their lips babbling politically correct jibberish when the answer is so very simple if...and that's the big thing, if... If has disolved into nothingness and the world spins so fast now that few even stop to hear what is being said...they just jump on the bandwagon because in many cases, it's the neat thing to do or something to do. They'll find someday they had no roots in it...it was just a moment in time and will look back on it with pride saying they can't believe they took part in it or in shame wondering why they did.

What I see is a public that let's the F word drop at the drop of a hat, rudeness toward young and old, people going crazy in the stores at Christmas grabbing and shoving, reaching out with greedy hands but at the same time talking about bullying and making sure it doesn't happen to their child but look how the parents act out in society--is there any wonder there are bullies? And no, I am very against bullying in school or anywhere else but this bandwagon is only for a few and not for all. I see Christians bullied everyday in someway whether it's in the media, in schools, or personally, I've seen it all this year.

I celebrated Christmas for one reason and now that is being taken away. It's turned into a brawl and greed and only a handfull in America even celebrate for the true reason. Am I a Scrooge this year...maybe...but as I see it, everyday ought to be Christmas with people giving not just to family but to people truly in need. It's become like going to church is for so many people, a social event, like they think sitting in church makes up for all the wrong things done during the week. Going to church doesn't mean a thing! It's what you do and how you act that matters. You can sit in a pew all week long but that's not going to get it done.

I guess I'm through ranting for now but I just don't see myself celebrating Christmas much longer.

posted by Mines Broken @ Tuesday, December 20, 2011   0 Comments Links to this post

Monday, December 12, 2011

To My Daughter

posted by Mines Broken @ Monday, December 12, 2011   0 Comments Links to this post

To My Daughter


posted by Mines Broken @ Monday, December 12, 2011   0 Comments Links to this post